I miss him. We were so close, you wouldnt believe it. I doubt if ANY family is as close as I am with my momy's side. I mean, we're all more then cousins and aunt's and uncles. I see them every Sunday. I can spill my guts out to my 2 rolemodel older cousins. I can talk and they actually listen. Us 3 are more power together then anything. We're like a team. Every Wednesday he'd comeover and download a few good songs for me, songs I never heard of. And I would listen to them. I remember the first 7.
Brand New- Magazines
Brand New- Faliure by Design
Band New- I believe you, but my Tommy Gun don't.
Fall Out boy- Chicago is so two years ago
Saves the Day- At your funeral
Taking Back Sunday- Cute without the E
The Get Up Kids- Mass pike

I jsut thought of them as songs and bands, as if nothing. I would listen each time and get more and more into them. I started researching on their lyrics and downloading more songs. Music became a magior part of my life after that. I always looked up to him for everything. Who I am now is all because of him. Who I am know is all pieces of himself. After that, Wednesday's not only became a day of the week to me, but the best day's to look forward to. From 4-7 every wednesday was the best times of my life. I remember using free hallowween Mc.Donald's coupons, and going to atleast 3 different Mc.Donald's in Hagerstown. It was "one coupon per customer and a one time visit" So we went to all different ones and odered everything and we'd pig out in the car on the road back home. We'd order in silly costumes and voices, just having fun. I'll never forget how close we became, he became my older brother, my rolemodle. He became my everything. I hope his next girlfriend treats him with only the best, because that kid sure deserves that. He is everything I look for in a guy, and I hope her sure as hell finds the right girl. I'll never forget this summer. This was the summer of my life. I have the biggest lump in my throat right now I can't even swallow it, jsut thinking of these times. We sat there, Me and him and watched the sky and talked. While parents we're out, we sat on that beach deck and while he played gutair and I drank my juice, we talked. And that one week in Outerbanks, North Carolina ment so much to me. I cry over Rise Against's Song- Swing life away every single time, I ball over that song. Just thinking of that one week. At 5:30am that morning, heading back to Hagerstown, I cried in the car, knowing that these last days will all become lost memories inside all of us. When we get home, theyy'll forget everything that happened. Knowing us 3 won't ever be as close. Last summer will always be the best, we were all the right age's to have fun. Next time, they'll be to old. He was 18, senior year. She was 16, junior year, and I was 13, 7th grade summer. He was in the bad highschool attutide, she was in the middle-aged highschool driver's license, partying age. And I was growing outa my preppy, nerdy attutide, into the real me, and getting into trouble attutidude. We were all at perfect times in our lives. Me and Him and Ang grew so close, leaving my sister out in the cold. Us three would party together late at night watching "Family Guy", and "Futurama" and blaring music together listening to Weezer and Fall out boy, while singning along. At night me and him would play "super smash-bros" and have so much fun, that game is a magior memory that stays with me. It was amazing. He'd wake me up every morning by crawling under the covers, laying in my bed and Ang in the bed right beside me, and Us three would talk about everything, then finally go to th beach together. After that trip, he'd call me up to hang with him for the day. And I would. We'd travel to Frederick together and go shopping. We went back to school shopping together in Frederick at the "Rugged Warehouse" And we played DDR together, and went to the "snow white grill" downtown, saw a yardsale selling ranch dressing, ketchup, mayo and mustard in the 100 degress weather, and that day, was full of so much giggling and suprises. We went to Pit crew together and I helped him pick out jeans to buy and etc. I swear we did everything together those days. And we both went to "Checkers" for the first time together, while we jammed to some kickass mix tapes. As I rolled the window down with music blaring and the sound of his voice, I knew I had it all, I knew it couldn't get any better, I knew I was having the time of my life. I knew everything was okay. But then after that summer, things started to fade out. College was near by and our days were running short. On August 26th he left for Baltimore, I balled to sleep that night, thinking he'd come out a different person and a new attutide. I didn't see him for 6straight, lonely weeks. I see him now, on holidays. Things aren't the same. He's mostly walked out of my life. He is still one of my rolemodels and one of the greatest people in my life. I still love him. He still hugs me and talks to me. We still realte on stuff, and he still makes me giggle hours on end. It's just nothing compared to last year/summer. I want it back. I wanna go back to last year. <33 I love my old life. Everones changed.